empty feeling

So far my life has been full of ups and downs. Love and loss. And recently it has been no different. My relationship of two years has come to an end. Leaving me with this empty feeling. What did I do wrong. Could I have done something different to avoid the ultimate outcome. But as the days pass it becomes more clear that the empty feeling was there even before the end. Sometimes you try so hard to hold on to something that just wasn't right. Its like you have a box with a round hole in it. And you want to fill that empty box . Then you meet a square. And you wish you had a square opening. So you keep trying to put that square into the round hole. If you keep trying hard enough and long enough and the edges of the square become worn and jaded. Until eventually it fits but its no longer the shape that you started with. And in the end you have only made it harder on yourself to let go because once inside, the shape moves and turns and then its not so easy to get it back out. In the most extreme situations you have to break that box to get it out. But now you have to build a new box.

Well that's where I am right now. I am building a new box. But this time I don't know what shape hole to make, Because what good is a box if you don't fill it up.